Age

While visiting my in laws awhile back my MIL and I were talking while Wate and his Dad were working on their computer so that they could get on the Internet. I was telling Milly how wonderful the Internet is all the things it has to offer so many things to learn. That was a whole world out there and that she didn't need to just sit around and watch TV. She told me that she was 76 and just to old to learn anything new shocked that anyone would every say such a thing I told her she was never to old to learn thinking that she just need some encouragement that she wasn't to old. She went on to say that since all her sibling that have died around the age of 86 she only had that long and that she just wasn't interested. I said well if your not interested that's one thing but your never to old. She said that I don't understand cause I'm still young (who thought 50 as young) that when I get to be her age I'd understand. I asked her who said that when you get to be 76 you can't do anything that I have known people who have done more things in their later years than they every did before, why did she think life was over. She just kept repeating I'd understand when I was her age. I finally told her I never wanted to be her age in her mind she was to old in my mind I'm still in my 20's. If George Bush Sr. can jump out of a plane at 85 why can't I.
I never want to be so old I feel I can't learn something new, my grandma was in her 90's when she pasted and she always told me "I can always learn something and want to Holly you are more in the world tell what you have learned so that I may know it too." That's the person I want to be, always learning new things until I leave this world. I want to be able to talk with my grand kids about the things they want. To keep up with technology my 2 year old grand daughter knows more about how things works than my kids did at her age. Imagine what she will know at 10, I want to be able to touch her and her world.
So my friends am I just crazy is Milly right that life is over at 76? I really don't want to live like that, I want to dance in the rain, get a rush from a thunderstorm, share a lightning storm with my grand kids, ride on the back of Wate's bike. Be it now or 100 years from now.
Until Later
Holly

Sadness

I kinda got into a heated discussion with my niece on facebook last night she put a comment Let go and Let God I said UUUHHH no I don't think so because I have seen to many people use that as a way of doing what they want. Well she came back that she was sad for me. I don't know why but I told her not to be I wasn't. Again I tryed to explain to her that there are a lot of people out there that use that as an excuse to sin cause they are letting go and letting God. Then I get attacked by her friends because of my avatar. Mind you these people don't know me or my reason for my avatar, I'm a 49 year old woman who suffers from Summer SAD so I have a sexy young cartoon in the snow that says Snowflake are kisses from heaven because I'd love to be young again and in the snow. At this point all I could say was they proved my point and I'd be praying for them. They all missed the deeper point I was trying to make. My son and I discussed this very thing last weekend and he was able to see what I was saying.
Let me say now that I don't really think of my self as a Christian (not in todays terms) but I not a non-Christian either. I believe in the Messiah as well as the Torah. I'm a blend of the two it's called Messianic Judaism. For me this was the best next step in my walk with God.
Now the reason I dislike the saying let go and let God. I have seen a number of people say that I'm letting go of everything and I'm letting God control everything, all the while spending like there's no tomorrow just because they want it, back biting their family,always wanting more of what their neighbor has, living very unwise. In the mean time as they are letting go and letting God they are filing for bankruptcy losing their homes, cars, getting divorced, and have kids that run wild. And they wonder why God didn't fix those things they were letting go and letting God, He was suppose to be in control. You can let go and let God all you want but you are still reasonable for your actions and the consequences of them. It's not about whose in control it's about trust. I don't think God controls or wants to control our life we do. The more we trust God the more we move our life in that direction. I have free will I chose the the path he wants or not. He wants us to freely chose His way that He knows best, trust that He will provide and stand by us. But we must also do the right thing, pay our bills, learn to say no don't drive ourselves in debt, don't care what are neighbor has, cherish your spouse, discipline our children, live wisely.
I guess the saddest thing is, is what I hoped people (my niece) would want is a deeper conversation not just the surface that most people get when you let go and let God. In stead I feel like I got jumped. I should have known better surface is all there is to most people.
Thanks for letting me rant.
Until Later
Holly

Give Thanks

Wow can you believe Thanksgiving is just a week away. I'm thinking about all things I grateful for, at times it seems like a cop out because they are things most people say. Family, friends, home, job, faith in God. All of these things I too am grateful for. You might be surprise to find out I do know of some who claim to be thankful but aren't they live in a world that is filled with so much anger and bitterness that they don't see what wonderful gifts they have. It just brakes my heart to see these people live in a world that is filled with so much darkness. I'm grateful that my faith in God helps to keep the darkness at bay. But it can be overwhelming since I know these people. I try so hard not to get caught up in their unhappiness but it can be hard. So this holiday I'm keeping a very narrow focus my family (kids, hubby) and most important God he is what keep me going. I know that even if I don't know everything about why the darkness is here He dose. For He knows the plans He has for me a future, hope. I'm thankful for that hope that He gives me.
Until later
Holly Days





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Family

A few weeks ago we had a house full our son Jim was here and my in laws stayed with us it was so nice to have everyone here. It was the first time they got to see K. Jim, Grandma, Tata, and Desi

Jim and K

Tata and K

Granny and K

And of course K was at the center right where she like to be. We all spin around her.

Until later

Holly