The Big Why

The big Why is the why we ask our selves from time to time 
Why am I here? 
Why do I work in a job I hate?
Why do I stay married to someone who hurts me so?
Why do I do anything?
Why do I study the word and finding no answers?
Why do I paint or draw?
Why do I craft?
Why do I clean house and clean my toilet? 
Sure some of these things may make you feel good and bring you joy,some not so much. But really there is only one answer. It comes down to one thing it's a heart issue. 
If you say I do this or that because I enjoy it, I love doing it, I do it for money to feed my family, to pay bills, to be famous, to be successful.
As good and noble as these might be if this is your first thought then I'm here to tell you, you are doing it for the wrong reasons. 
The Big Why has a simple answer but one that I can not tell. If I was to tell you, you would lose out on your journey to discover the answer and that's where true joy is. It takes something that I find most people really don't want to do. We live in a world that if I can't get it in 2 seconds it's not worth it we have to have it NOW. How do find the Big Why it's done with self reflection truly seeing yourself and your relationships. I will tell if after doing this you come way thinking it's about me and the world is to blame then you did it wrong. 
I wish you well on your journey to finding your Big Why. 
Until Later,
Holly

A Gift

On Jan.5th late night we got the call that they had a heart. Jim looked like he was going to just faint the day had come. Haydee went in surgery on the morning of the 6th to get a wonderful gift.

Jim captured this moment of mother and daughter just before Haydee went to get her gift. No words just the look of love.

They had to keep Haydee asleep for awhile to let her body and new heart get use to each other. They started to wake her on the 13th Jim could hardly wait to look into those beautiful blue eyes and now see the life they will have together.

She is doing really well still a long road but the road just got a lot smoother. She can hardly wait to get up and start working to get her strength back. I'm excited to see how she grows in the Lord. 
It has been an emotional trip being here I'll be going home next week a lot happier than when I came here. I hope that I was a help to my son to help him not feel so alone. I will miss him more than I can say. Hopefully it won't be long until they can come and visit us now that Haydee will able to travel. 
Until Later,
Holly

A Heart

We got the call last night that they may have a heart for Haydee. After all the test they decided it was a go. Haydee was in surgery all night and now has a new heart. This is such wonderful news for us. The next few days are critical. So we are still in a wait and see but it's more hopeful than it has been. I would ask that you would still pray for her that her body will accept the heart as hers and that she will recover fast. Thank you all that have been praying for her.
Until Later,
Holly