Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Monday, December 28, 2009
Happy New Year it's once again a time for reflection. And you all know how I love reflection. How was the last year, what do you want from the new one. There is so much I'd like to do. I want to grow in my blogging. I want to to get more into my quilting I'd like to get at least 4 quilts done this year. I want to add some color to my life and home. To stop and smell the roses more, to plant the roses. To listen to more music and watch TV less. I'd like to find something for my daughter and I to do from home. I want to study the bible more at least one study a month. I want to grow as a person I can see areas I need to change. I don't like who I've become. I know that it's a defensive mechanism to protect myself no one else will. I want to learn that all the negativity can be dumped on you and it doesn't have to make you neg. That you can still be positive even when your over whelmed by negativity. I have to believe that there is a light at the end of the tunnel.
Sunday, December 20, 2009
Oh how I love this day it's my favorite day the longest night shortest day. Someday I'll figure out something special to do on this day. I love winter and this is the day of winter. So HAPPY WINTER.
Friday, December 18, 2009
Thought I'd post my favorite Christmas song for all of you When I was a kid we use to watch the Bing Crosby Christmas special and one year this was the song he sung and it became my all time favorite
Hope you all enjoy it.
Saturday, December 12, 2009
The first day is always the busiest I make so much food I made a bunch of latkes, fried chicken, and some gravy. Yes we eat latkes southern style. Hope you all have a happy holiday. It was so nice having Des and Chris over with K she love potatoes and it was her first Hanukkah I hope she will not be to disappointed as she gets older that she'll not get gifts during any holiday. It's the only thing I hate about the holidays I'm not allowed to give. Oh well it doesn't stop me from making thing to give during the year. I did make some thing and gave them early.
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
One of the ladies I follow did this and I'm stealing her idea. So to all my followers and readers of my blog if you would send me you address in the comments or if your uncomfortable with that e-mail me your address (my e-mail is in my profile). I would love to send all of you a Christmas card. I just bought a box for me to do this. I really hope you all will let me do this for you.
Love you all
Friday, December 4, 2009
I kinda got into a heated discussion with my niece on facebook last night she put a comment Let go and Let God I said UUUHHH no I don't think so because I have seen to many people use that as a way of doing what they want. Well she came back that she was sad for me. I don't know why but I told her not to be I wasn't. Again I tryed to explain to her that there are a lot of people out there that use that as an excuse to sin cause they are letting go and letting God. Then I get attacked by her friends because of my avatar. Mind you these people don't know me or my reason for my avatar, I'm a 49 year old woman who suffers from Summer SAD so I have a sexy young cartoon in the snow that says Snowflake are kisses from heaven because I'd love to be young again and in the snow. At this point all I could say was they proved my point and I'd be praying for them. They all missed the deeper point I was trying to make. My son and I discussed this very thing last weekend and he was able to see what I was saying.
Let me say now that I don't really think of my self as a Christian (not in todays terms) but I not a non-Christian either. I believe in the Messiah as well as the Torah. I'm a blend of the two it's called Messianic Judaism. For me this was the best next step in my walk with God.
Now the reason I dislike the saying let go and let God. I have seen a number of people say that I'm letting go of everything and I'm letting God control everything, all the while spending like there's no tomorrow just because they want it, back biting their family,always wanting more of what their neighbor has, living very unwise. In the mean time as they are letting go and letting God they are filing for bankruptcy losing their homes, cars, getting divorced, and have kids that run wild. And they wonder why God didn't fix those things they were letting go and letting God, He was suppose to be in control. You can let go and let God all you want but you are still reasonable for your actions and the consequences of them. It's not about whose in control it's about trust. I don't think God controls or wants to control our life we do. The more we trust God the more we move our life in that direction. I have free will I chose the the path he wants or not. He wants us to freely chose His way that He knows best, trust that He will provide and stand by us. But we must also do the right thing, pay our bills, learn to say no don't drive ourselves in debt, don't care what are neighbor has, cherish your spouse, discipline our children, live wisely.
I guess the saddest thing is, is what I hoped people (my niece) would want is a deeper conversation not just the surface that most people get when you let go and let God. In stead I feel like I got jumped. I should have known better surface is all there is to most people.
Thanks for letting me rant.
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
Is there any place on this planet that the flies take a rest during winter. I'm about to go mad I feel like this kitten.
I can't even open my door without 100's OK maybe not 100's but it feels like 100's coming in the door. I'm about to go postal on them. This is a warning to all the flies out there I'm out for blood and I'm going to let my dog eat your dead bodies. HAHAHAHA how do you like that.
Until later and hopefully a calmer one
Monday, November 23, 2009
I've read a couple of these today and thought I'd join in. So here are my little secrets.
I love glitter and will sometime buy it just to have it.
I love snow more than anything and could be happy being snowed in for days.
I hate summer and the sun.
Even though I like vampires I have to say I'm on team Jacob.
I have been procrastinating in my crafts and I don't know why.
I fear being forgotten.
Now how about you whats your little secret.
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
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Tuesday, November 17, 2009
Wow can you believe Thanksgiving is just a week away. I'm thinking about all things I grateful for, at times it seems like a cop out because they are things most people say. Family, friends, home, job, faith in God. All of these things I too am grateful for. You might be surprise to find out I do know of some who claim to be thankful but aren't they live in a world that is filled with so much anger and bitterness that they don't see what wonderful gifts they have. It just brakes my heart to see these people live in a world that is filled with so much darkness. I'm grateful that my faith in God helps to keep the darkness at bay. But it can be overwhelming since I know these people. I try so hard not to get caught up in their unhappiness but it can be hard. So this holiday I'm keeping a very narrow focus my family (kids, hubby) and most important God he is what keep me going. I know that even if I don't know everything about why the darkness is here He dose. For He knows the plans He has for me a future, hope. I'm thankful for that hope that He gives me.
Thursday, November 12, 2009
I was inspired by a Mom of other blog http://foothillhomecompanion.blogspot.com/ to write this. I enjoy reading all the blogs I follow mostly of other Moms and thier memories of their children. My children are grown and now I have a grandchild. As a Mom and now a grandma I have come to see our (Moms) role alittle different we are the memory keepers good and bad. We take the bad and throw them to the four winds and good we continue to share so that our grandkids can know them. So to all the Moms out there keep your memories, share them thats our jobs. Thank you all for sharing them with all of us out here.
Friday, November 6, 2009
Sunday, November 1, 2009
My Dad passed away today I knew it was going to happen soon my grandmother had been letting me know he was ill. My Dad was not always a nice man in fact he could be mean, hurtful, and he was an alcoholic. For all his faults he did have some good points he made me laugh he could cook like no one I have ever seen in fact he taught me. The best fudge came from his hands. He took me on my first of many things like my first date, my first corsage, my first diamond, and my first dozen roses. Our song is Daddy don't you walk so fast by Wayne Newton. I got my love of trivia from him no one was a bigger bull sh-ter than he was. Half the time I didn't know what was true and what was not. He gave me pride in who I was and the people I came from. I loved him I may not have always liked him but I did love him. So for now I will light my candle to honor him and say my prayers. I hope that he has the peace he could never find here.
Thursday, October 22, 2009
Sunday, October 18, 2009
I thought I would share some of the things I'm learning after my time of reflection (Yom Kippur). This year has been a tiresome one.
I have so many thoughts running through my head, God has been showing me so much. Trying to sort it all out facing truths can be hard at times.You know all this time I thought that if you didn't grow in a positive way you weren't growing. I know now that's not true it is possible to grow in a negative way as hard as it is to believe it can happen. I'm just now seeing it. When you learn something that will move you forward in a direction that is of God it often comes in leaps, like being hit by a train. You stand back and go WOW why didn't I see that sooner. Truth/growth can be like that it only happens when your ready for it only then POW it happens.
How unlike negative growth it's so subtle that you never notice it. You make adjustments, make excuses not realizing that this is only enabling the negative growth, That through anothers negative growth you yourself are growing in a negative way. You slowly have become someone you don't know, your lost, your someone you don't even really like anymore. So now the journey begins out of the pit of negative growth. I can already see that it will be painful in some ways, I know there will be some relief as well. I so look forward to getting to know the women I lost so long ago. I have missed that free spirited women who loved life in a way I've never seen before. But it took me a long time to lose her it will take awhile to find her again. I so want K to meet her. Wish me luck on my journey.
Sunday, October 11, 2009
With Sukkot now over it's so sad that I didn't get to celebrate it. Wate would have just made it so hard to enjoy. I wonder why Wate makes things so hard doesn't he see that he misses out on so much. I have come to see that anger robs you steals everything that is important and convinces you that if only everyone would stop making them mad and just do what you say they wouldn't be anger anymore. So this Sukkot was a sad one even if we didn't do anything. I always seem to have this sadness of pity for Wate since I know there may came a day when he sees what his anger has done and it will be to late or even sader that he'll see it and not care.
I really wanted to go camping this year but oh well. I hope next year I'll get to do something I want K to have some holidays. Even if I don't get to be with her on those days.
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
This time of year is always special for me. I have tried to use this time for reflection. How has my life gone this past year? What can I change, where do I need to grow for the New Year. Who have I wronged do I need to make amends someplace. This year is even more special I have quit smoking over 30 days by the time Rosh Hashanah gets here over 40 at Yom Kippur. I feel this is a good number 40 has a lot of importance to it. I'm looking forward to the future. It funny it's like I can feel change coming some good some bad. I'm as ready as I can be. The New Year is looking good for me and mine.
Sunday, August 16, 2009
Even though New Moon isn't a holiday per say but it is a time of celebration. A time for for may things for it can mean as little or as much as you want. For me each month it's gaining more meaning. With New Moon just a few days away I look forward to this one more than any other. I'm on the path to new beginnings. I have been on this path before and have slipped off it only to find myself lost on my journey. But by the grace of God he gives me something every month new moon, new beginnings or what I like to call Gods idea of a do over. So I'm back on my journey. As I start on this path I can see the light at the end of the tunnel which I haven't seen in a long time. I hope that by the next new moon I will have figured out some way to truly honor this time of the month. I love the holidays and of them all this one is my favorite. I think it's because there is a connection between women and the moon. The Sages say that Rosh Chodesh (new moon) was given to women because of the whole golden cafe thing we didn't want to take part in that party. If I had a sofar I would surely be blowing it in a few days. May we all enjoy a new beginning.
Monday, August 10, 2009
My dog here in the middle of this heat he wraps himself up in his rug he's a nut.
Here he is trying to fit through the cat door he doesn't like it if he can't be right next to me at all times.
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
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Monday, July 27, 2009
Sunday, July 26, 2009
It's that time of year when I start dreaming of Fall and Winter. With them my favorite holidays. Of course they are celebrated in the closet or in secret. I guess that can be fun in some ways. But to be honest I've never been very good at secrets I always end up giving the gifts or telling what I got for others or what I made for them. I just get so excited.
It's so hard to that excitement and just put it in the closet and only live there. As I look at K I realize how much I missed out with my kids when it comes to the holidays. I have one who is almost fearful that they like the holidays, and the other is almost as cynical as their parental unit. I pray that some how I'm able to make it up to all of them. It's hard in the closet there is so much holiday spirit in here that's just dying to get out. It may be awhile before I'm able to leave the closet. I will do my best to make it up to them all.
Thursday, July 16, 2009
Monday, July 6, 2009
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
Sunday, June 28, 2009
My daughter Desi got two tickets to the circus so her and I went. I hadn't been in a long time over 30 years. We had a really good time mostly because I was with Desi. The only thing was the prices of everything what happen to the good old days when cotton candy came on a stick and a snow cone came in a paper cup. Just cause you dress it up with all kinds of fancy doesn't change what it is. In spite of that I did scum I bought one of each for us. I can't imagine what it like to have a big family and paying these prices. You'd need a stimulus package just to go and buy anything. It was fun seeing the acrobats I always loved them I could watch them all day. Desi liked the elephants. The cats reminded me of my house cats it's funny how much alike they are.
Friday, June 26, 2009
Thursday, June 18, 2009
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Thursday, June 11, 2009
I thought with the 4th coming up I'd put this link out there it for a free pocket constitution. http://www.askheritage.org/Premium.aspx
We should all know what it says not what others tell us it says just like we should know our history. We have a wonderful country. You all have a great 4th as I know I will.